BETTER!

I'm feeling better now. I'll be going back to the seminary tomorrow. The fully recovered Pitchy is coming back. These few days contributed a lot to my recovery. It helped me not just physically but mentally.

Morning Adagio

My check up is scheduled tomorrow. As of now my cousin who is a nurse told me to just rest. I think I'll just follow her advice. So far so good I'm feeling better. Smile is knocking once more, so I'll let smile in.

POEM POEM?

A friend sent me this through e-mail, anyway It sounds good so POST! :)

Why do people tend to let you down
When you`re up and enjoying life?
Why do they mind everything
Even in one`s personal being?

When someone is transforming
And others keep on doubting?
When someone is talking
And others are interrupting?

Why is there a distant success
Where failure is always next?
Why can`t human accept losing
When there`s somebody better than him?

Why can`t problems be solved
When problems have right solutions?
Why are people not all rich
When people can possibly be rich?

Why do you keep on crying
When he never gives you ring?
Why do you keep on questioning
When nobody dare to do the answering?

All these queries you have not to pray
Or you breakdown if you cry
A consolation from HIM you must try
That turns your day without a sigh.
- Anonymous

Insomia

Having a hard time sleeping because of the pain. Ouch! it aches a lot lately. I'll consult a doctor about this. It's already midnight and coldness of the night is like a knife cutting through my skin.

Lorn

My heart aches, my heart feels heavy, my heart is sad. I never thought that that would happen. Expect the unexpected. But I'm not angry I'm just depress I don't blame anybody.

Ealy Morning Reflection

"The greatest sickness of today is to be nobody to anybody"
-Mother Teresa

We had a discussion in Philosophy about Being. As Fr. Joseph discuss the meaning of being, the saying of Mother Teresa was mentioned. It had me thinking about a lot of things. Among all of things that entered my mind, the one that remained is the one that has been bothering me for quite some time now. And as I kept on reflecting I'm finally starting to understand. But in someway there something in my heart that kept on causing me pain. In an occupation like mine I often ask "If I could make other peoples wishes come true then who will be the one to make mine come true?".

Unlucky day

I'm really excited about my free time today but I turns out that I will not be permitted to have my free time because was was late last free time for 10min HURRAY XD.

Now 4-5:30 pm me and my friends are going to clean. I hate it because this is my first time to ever get sanctioned.

Oh well at least I did something to cheer me up. I ordered food from McDonald YEHEY!

Prelims (3rd and last day)

This is the last day of torment. After this I'll be relaxing. I hope that I can go out for free time later :3 .

I'm printed the lyrics of "when you say you love me" by Josh Groban. I really love this song. Every time I sing this song I'm in awe and a happy feeling takes over my body.

I have only one exam today which is Logic. I'm still confuse with logic so I guess I'll have to concentrate more on logic.

I'm happy today because of something that brightens my day.

Prelims (2nd Day)

The 2nd Day of torment is here. So far I manage to answer all questions. Now I have to study "Introduction to Philosophy" and "Logic".

During this day I've been depress but thank to my friends I manage to remove the negative feelings inside of me now I'm full of joy.

I think I want to write something for Soli Deo. I said to myself why not write all the negative feelings and make a poem or something else.

WORD OF THE DAY:

"SMILE"

Pre-lims

It's time for the pre-lims. I have to study a lot. Wish I could pass the exams.

"Don't waste time or time will see you wasted"
- Msgr. Nong

Another day

Well I woke up early. I during the Mass I felt something and it bothered me again. I'm still worrying about the future. I hope I get over this soon. The days are passing and my emotions and feelings are developing. It pains me sometimes when I want to do something but I can't. I don't feel like arraging my sentence in the proper way coz that's how I feel right now.

Confused?

Not anymore I'm just preparing myself for the inevitable. But as the days past something is happening. Damn am afraid. History repeats itself.

The Inevitable

In the past days I've been bothered by a lot of things in my mind. It is because of what is to come in my life. Because I know that one day I will be alone again. They say that separation is a part of life and we can't do anything about it. They say that in order for new people to enter into our lives we have to say goodbye to older friends. My question is "Do we really have to lose our older friends?". I'm so depress about it, call me selfish but I don't want them to go. I don't want to feel lonely again. For years I've been bearing this loneliness and I'm afraid that it might grow even more as time passes. I kept on asking myself "Will I be able to bear it if that time comes?" or "Will I suffer again?". More questions piles up it is now a sandbox so heavy that I can't even lift it.

"If we love someone with all our heart, we can't bear the sorrow that follows if we shall ever lose them"

July 2

The house:

We nothing interesting happened today. I just remembered what somebody told me about The House. For me there's no need to do something about it. Although I'm impress that he noticed it. well I guess that something should be compressed.

Love:

well I don't know what to say. Maybe maybe not, still not sure about this. but no matter what it is I must maintain the calmness of my mind and soul.

Although you guys don't understand what I'm saying. I'll just tell you if you ask me

A new blog

Well this is my new blog. Unlike the previous one I'll be updating this almost everyday.