Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Jesus take the wheel

I'm on the verge of giving up. I can't here God anymore. I feel so sad. O God please talk to me again. Please don't hide from me. I really need you back :(
These tears won't stop flowing.
I'm lost.

Please take the wheel of my life and drive me back to your light.
Sorrow is engulfing me.

Please always be at my side. I don't know what to do if you're not with me.

My heart has been broken so badly. Lord I need you and I love you. :(

Sunday, June 5, 2011

awful

I feel awfully sad....I don't know what but I feel that something is mssing...a part of m is missing....I don't know to find it I don't know I don't know I don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't know

Unfathomable

I really can't understand why I am lonely right now.....
I feel this deep longing but I'm clueless to who am I longing??

I went to the church I while ago...but why do I have this feeling of regret? I'm the one who chose to leave aren't I?
I really miss being a seminarian....I would give anything just to return.....

I don't even know myself anymore. I hid my emotions too much. And by doing so all the pain are all stuck here inside my heart.

Now my life is haunted by the question "What if?"

I'm lost. I need Gods guidance but why can't I hear him anymore?? What happened?