Gan Lae gan

Facts: "Gan lae gan" means together in Thai language.

The song is the theme of 2007 movie "The Love of Siam"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=E2ibZQABXow

This is where I got my Screen Name but not because of the movie or the actor but because I made a cover of this song haha :)

"As long as there's love you still have hope"

The first time I heard this song was when I was watching the movie. At that time I was at bliss. Almost everyday I kept on watching movies then I stumble on the movie so I watched it. I knew that it's a gay movie but I still watched it. To tell you guys honestly I cried a lot when the movie ended. Reason? It's because I saw myself in one of the main character. Call me Gay or BI I don't care if you're a stereotype. I know how LONELINESS feels like. I've been living with my family but they don't even care about. I know that you thinking I'm getting the wrong idea but I don't. This is the absolute truth. Ever since my father died no one even bothered to show their love to me. So since then I've been living in solitude. Like the boy Mew in the movie. I cried when he was crying because just when he found someone that loves him he can't do anything but to let go.

In the movie "gan lae gan" was made for Tong. The lyrics and melody is so beautiful that it made me cry and cry. Because of gan lae gan I started believing that I still have chance at love. The part of the song "as long as there's love you still have hope" is forever etched in my heart. Now I'm still waiting for love to come, I don't know when, I don't know where and I don't know who but still I'm waiting for you.

Now let's get started...

My blog will be music related but not directly related to Music :)

Kinda hard to explain? well just you wait :)

BEEN a WHILE PART 2 :)

I've decided to turn my blog into something interesting not just all about me....but I wonder where to start ....

Jesus take the wheel

I'm on the verge of giving up. I can't here God anymore. I feel so sad. O God please talk to me again. Please don't hide from me. I really need you back :(

These tears won't stop flowing.

I'm lost.

Please take the wheel of my life and drive me back to your light.

Sorrow is engulfing me.

Please always be at my side. I don't know what to do if you're not with me.

My heart has been broken so badly. Lord I need you and I love you. :(

awful

I feel awfully sad....I don't know what but I feel that something is mssing...a part of m is missing....I don't know to find it I don't know I don't know I don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't knowI don't know

Unfathomable

I really can't understand why I am lonely right now.....

I feel this deep longing but I'm clueless to who am I longing??

I went to the church I while ago...but why do I have this feeling of regret? I'm the one who chose to leave aren't I?

I really miss being a seminarian....I would give anything just to return.....

I don't even know myself anymore. I hid my emotions too much. And by doing so all the pain are all stuck here inside my heart.

Now my life is haunted by the question "What if?"

I'm lost. I need Gods guidance but why can't I hear him anymore?? What happened?

Unknown tomorrow

I don't have a single clue about what's gonna happen. All my plans went down the drain. I still feel bad not being able to study in iAcademy. Now this is real starting from scratch I don't even know where to start. This June I'll be living in Pili, Cam Sur 'cause I don't want to rent in a boarding house in Naga City. Besides my school is just a ride away.

To tell you honestly I'm not even excited about it. Maybe I'll get over it. Right now I have to start studying the lessons in advance. I want to visit the school soon.